click

a word i usually hear, but never in this context !
it was yesterday, when i had a very long conversation with a dear friend...
i just wanted to have a long relation, till we each know each others, and have time to think, and decide, but..
"it just didnt click"...
although it clicked with me ! :)
i felt lost, totally, as the main thing was vanishing in front of my eyes, and i was not able to do anything...just have to be polite, and respect "others" decisions.
could not step out of the car at that time, had a cigar, and went back home, even couldnt go to the office...
but sthg made the difference, it was the family, as we were having something at night, family and friends who's like a family for me, it was nice, and it helped...
now is the hard time, when i realize that it's the reality, and i have to stay away, and not even contact or think of it, coz if i did, it will hurt more....
hurt more,,,, i was convincing my self that i'm fine, but, i'm hurt.

lost!

very bad week, feeling very bad, depressed, and need a vacation....
today is good, inshAlla tomorrow is better...

mmmm, donno about other things, if i have to hope things will work or not...
but,
the best thing in my life till now, is that i have a gr8 family, a very relaxing home, supportive brother, and this is a bless!

7amdolilla...

strange feeling....

thinking....
cant even decide if things are good or bad, depressed, optimistic...

depressed about unimportant things, optimistic about the most important part of my life, but other things affect my life eventually...yes, they do..

it is really strange !